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What Are Your Core Truths?

Right now my son and I are reading Pax by Sara Pennypacker.  The chapter we read last night got me to thinking, how the character Vola says she didn't remember one single true thing about herself after she had left the military, after going to war and then coming out as a civilian.

Has that ever happened to you?  Where you just lost yourself, forgotten when your core values are?  I have.  I've been in the military too but that's not where mine were really waylaid.  That didn't come until much later.

Whenever I feel like I've forgotten what my core values are, I think back to my 16-year old self first.  After that would be my college self, where I began to come into my own and make choices as an adult for the first time.  I'm then refreshed as to my core truths, when I am my honest self - some of which are:


1) If you can't count on family and know they will always have your back, that's not a family.
2) So-called "love" which lacks free-flowing hugs, kisses and touch is not love.
3) I love to write.
4) I need to be creative.
5) Music needs to be an integral part of my life.
6) I love nature and will lose part of myself if I ever stray too far from it.
7) I believe in justice and fighting for it.
8) I love horses and want to have one someday.

What are your core truths?  Do you keep them close to you every day?  Or have you lost yourself lately?  What might you find if you ask yourself?

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