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Keto Day 23

Still on plan. But my mood is terrible. I'm sure it's from my period. But it's hard to tell. So many real things bothering me. The neighbor shit, some people at office. I try to remind myself it's just PMS making everything seem worse.

But good example of weathering the storm, staying OP through good days and bad days. I want this better life. I wish Carl was going on this journey with me but as I continue, I will keep showing him a good example that I hope will inspire him. 

I've been low energy still. And had stomach problems. But I need to start working out. I know it's mostly how I eat but working out will boost my mood and inspire me even further.

I really want to shake this terrible mood. I took my antidepressant. But sometimes periods are hell.

It's been so long since I was at a trim weight. Seems so distant, hard to remember at all.

I know a lot of the negativity I feel about myself is caught up in this weight. That as the weight falls off I will release more and more negativity.

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